Friendship

It's one of the things that your heart can't life without. Someone to vent to, someone to share things with, someone to listen to... All of these things are extremely important especially if you have ever had a friend that you feel you've lost.



I have many wonderful friends that I would mourn over losing. One of which I feel I have already lost for reasons beyond my control. One day you are talking without fail and the next communication ends. What happened? You never know unless you ask and sometimes when you ask you don't get the answer you are looking for. You appologize for actions that you don't realize have even occured. I have even gone so far as to continually call and call and I continue to get the same response. What more do you have to do?



Part of my problem is I tend to be a pleaser...I never want anyone to be upset with me or to dislike me.



Is a friend that will not tell you what is wrong really a good friend? Are they trying in some strange way to save you from yourself? To spare your feelings when in the long run they are hurting them by ignoring your existance.



Friendship can be a difficult thing to master. It is a longterm relationship of sorts that is mastered over time. Think of the friends that you had in Kindergarten? Are they the same friends that you talk to today, or have you moved on to other friends? Were all the friends that you have had a long the way been a stepping stone to learn how to be in this relationship today? All in all this was merely a way to vent my feelings about friendships that may be visible to others, but in my eyes are very vague and definately not transparent on the surface. You never see us talk anymore unless it is in short choppy sentences and you can never ask them advice because they are no longer talking to you. What do you do to get the friend back that says there is nothing wrong?