New Chapter

Time to start a new chapter in my life!!! One that I didn't think I would ever be starting again. For those of you who know me well or those of you who are just loyal readers, Stratton and I officially broke up on June 15. I have been bombarded with all of these thoughts of why I am not good enough. Why did this persist for 2 years before he decided to tell me this. "He said, He wasn't as sure about us as he felt he should be". What a blow to my heart. The person who has said he loved me for 2 years, is now not sure how he feels about me. I could say that I am taking this well, but that would be complete understatement. I know this is 2 blogs in a row, but I ask you to please pray for me! I am hurt and a little lost. The life that I thought I had is now changed and will never be the same. Each day is a little better, and each breath is a little easier to take in!

A little stressed!!!

Okay so I am really in need of vent time. This week has been so hard. Here I am so excited about camp and getting all of my stuff finished and what happens? I get sick! That's okay I can totally bounce back! But what worries me is My dad went into the hospital on Tuesday. For all of you that don't know, my dad's health is not the greatest at this point due to his need of a liver transplant! (Totally the condensed soup version!) Anyway the dr's in Jonesboro put him on a high dosage of antibiotics and that has totally messed his insides up! SO now he is in Memphis getting better! I never realized how hard it was going to be away from my family until dad got sick! I can't be there and do what I need to do for him. I am not there to ask the questions to the doctors and so I feel completely separated! Really tough stuff!

On a worse note, some lunatic feels that it is necessary to break into cars over by where I work. They are stealing things like garage door openers and insurance and registration information. Scary!!!! And to top it all off, When I got home from church last night, I started to put my pj's on and of all things, someone was shining a stinkin' red lazer light in my window! SUPER SCARY!!!! So I called the neighbors and they came over and looked around. I called the police and they said they would put extra patrol over on my street. As I hung up with them the little bad person did it again! So I immediately called the police back and they sent over patrol. My sweet little lady neighbor was watching the house when it happened the 2nd time and saw it. Talk about a horrible nights sleep!

So here I am at work trying to keep from crying cause I think that I have had about all I can handle this week! Realizing God never puts more on me than I can handle. I put what I have in his hands and ask him to help me! Give me courage to be there for my family, Give me peace to understand that I can not change things that are out of my control, and Give me endurance to move forward and be productive! HE knows better what I need than what I can express and so if he needs to tweek these requests I know he will! Please pray for me this week and the following while I am at camp!

Love you guys!!!!

This is hard!!!

So I weighed in last Monday and I was slightly sad with my results. I lost another 2 and 1/2 pounds, but he said I gained 3 pounds of muscle...As a female, you want to see the number go down...not stay the same, but I am continuing to chug along. One day the number will be down to where I want it. I am supposed to weigh in again today, so I guess we'll see what kind of progress I made in a weeks time!!! Wish me luck!!!

Good Story

BILLY GRAHAM'S SUIT. ( I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS AS MUCH AS I DID )
Something heartwarming - nice to see this kind of mail!

Billy Graham is now 86 years old with Parkinson's disease. In January 2000, leaders in Charlotte , North Carolina , invited their favorite son, Billy Graham, to a luncheon in his honor. Billy initially hesitated to accept the invitation because he struggles with Parkinson's disease. But the Charlotte leaders said, 'We don't expect a major address. Just come and let us honor you. So he agreed.

After wonderful things were said about him, Dr. Graham stepped to the rostrum, looked at the crowd, and said, 'I'm reminded today of Albert Einstein, the great physicist who this month has been honored by Time magazine as the Man of the Century. Einstein was once traveling from Princeton on a train when the conductor came down the aisle, punching the tickets of every passenger. When he came to Einstein, Einstein reached in his vest pocket. He couldn't find his ticket, so he reached in his trouser pockets. It wasn't there, so he looked in his briefcase but couldn't find it. Then he looked in the seat beside him. He still couldn't find it.

The conductor said, 'Dr. Einstein, I know who you are. We all know who you are. I'm sure you bought a ticket. Don't worry about it.'

Einstein nodded appreciatively. The conductor continued down the aisle punching tickets. As he was ready to move to the next car, he turned around and saw the great
physicist down on his hands and knees looking under his seat for his ticket.

The conductor rushed back and said, 'Dr. Einstein, Dr. Einstein, don't worry, I know who you are. No problem. You don't need a ticket. I'm sure you bought one.'

Einstein looked at him and said, 'Young man, I too, know who I am. What I don't know is where I'm going.''

Having said that Billy Graham continued, 'See the suit I'm wearing? It's a brand new suit. My wife, my children, and my grandchildren are telling me I've gotten a little slovenly in my old age. I used to be a bit more fastidious. So I went out and bought a new suit for this luncheon and one more occasion.

You know what that occasion is? This is the suit in which I'll be buried. But when you hear I'm dead, I don't want you to immediately remember the suit I'm wearing. I want you to remember this: I not only know who I am .. I also know where I'm going.'

May your troubles be less, your blessings more, and may nothing but happiness, come through your door.

So it really works

Bless all of you who have listened to me belly ache for the last 3 weeks. By the way that means I only have 9 more weeks to go before this program is over....That is really exciting. So here is my update...After the first 3 weeks I lost a total of 9 pounds!! YEA!!!! He adjusted my workout program and so now I have to "JUST KEEP SWIMMING!!!!" I love that quote... Pray that the Lord helps me stay motivated!!!! Until next time!

12 Weeks

Who said working out was fun? I am having to retrain my body to do all the things it did many years ago, and can i state that my body is not happy about it. I have found muscles that I had forgotten about. But I know that this is going to be good for me in the long run. I have made jokes that I need to take a picture in my swimsuit and then follow it up after the 12 weeks is completed. The trainer at the gym told me if I worked hard it would be an "EXTREME MAKEOVER". Can I tell you how happy that would make me! Anyway, I'll let you know how it is going over the next 12 weeks. I can do anything for 12 weeks right?

FAVORITISM

After listening to Robert's talk last night, I wanted to give him a pat on the back!!!! Those were good words! I think we all needed to hear not only what the video said but also what he provided in his lesson. We all need to treat others the way we want to be treated!!! "GOLDEN RULE"~ "Do unto other's as you would have them do unto you"!

I think it is great that these are the types of lessons that he is bringing to the youth. In our society, it is hard to fit in; therefore, it can be assumed that you would try to do what you can do in order to be a part of the "In Group". This word is important for our youth to understand. In our walk of life as a christian, we are to strive to be christ like. If we are doing so, we will not try to fit in. We will walk and befriend all that is around in order to further the kingdom. I hope that I can live out the lesson and encourage others.